Lack of posts/updates.

First, I just want to say before I get into what I was initially going to post … is that … I FIGURED OUT JUST NOW HOW TO RESTORE MY BOOK LISTS (I knew when I would always update them that I saw revisions lists for them, but for some reason back in January I couldn’t figure out where those revision updates went – BUT I JUST FOUND THEM!!!!!) AND I JUST FIGURED OUT HOW TO REMOVE THE COUNTDOWN WIDGET!!!


Ok, now with the post (that I actually wrote down yesterday while I was at work).

It’s been awhile. Practically 9 months. After the deleting of the book reading lists fiasco (WHICH I JUST FIXED!!!) and the fact that I don’t know how to delete the countdown widget (WHICH I JUST DID TOO!!!!), I got pissed. And stayed away. Which is dumb. And I’ve even thought about deleting the blog. Which would be dumb too. And maybe even starting fresh. I don’t like all of my categories (far too many, same with tags). I don’t like this. I don’t like that. Blah Blah Blah. And more importantly, the sole purpose for this blog was to hold me accountable (in my writing), which has been a TOTAL FAIL!

So, let’s start anew.

A new beginning.

A fresh, clean slate.

I’m not going to delete because I have some wonderful memories in here, on here, whatever.

I’m not going to worry about labels, or categories, or tags, or whatever. Just put on here what I want to put on here when I want to put on here.

There’s no telling what the future holds.

Let’s take a journey together.

And if no one actually reads these, I like talking to myself anyways šŸ™‚

Besides, you haven’t missed much. Except for a few awesome book releases. And September, well Rapptember (I’ll get to that soon).

So, let’s jump to it.

Be prepared for a flood of posts.

(And since I was able to make those changes before I started this post, I am extra pumped up to get going and catch you all up and to get back in the flow of blogging!!!)

Book Lists

So, I was finally updating my Book List for 2016 when I happened to click on my list for 2015 (I wanted to see if I made a note or anything at the end of the year) and guess what? It was blank. BLANK! The same with 2014! WHAT THE HECK?!?!?!

A couple weeks ago, I was trying to work on updating my blog, since I’ve been pretty bad about that lately, and I was trying to figure out how to properly get the Book Lists tab in he right order. I did manage to finally figure it out, but it looks like in my attempts in doing so, I deleted those 2 lists. I am so bummed. DANG IT!

So, I’m thinking of deleting those 2 threads since I have no way of knowing what and when I read in those 2 years. But, I am afraid in trying to figure that out that I may end up damaging the 2016 list, so, I will likely just leave them blank for now.

That was the only thing I managed to get updated (even though it looks like I royally messed up though) because the sidebar has changed. I wanted to take off my countdown widget and change the header pic but haven;’t a clue in how to do that now. So, for now, this page will look very un-updated, except for the new posts I do.

In which, I promise to be more active. I need to clean this blog up a bit. And I’m not sure what to blog about. I had such high hopes for last year, and I managed for a little bit, and then it all went downhill (my work life changed drastically for the year last year and the summer months were very harsh – so THAT all didn’t help).

But DANG IT, I am so sad those 2 Book Lists are now gone.

Happy Easter & Updates on Life

To all who celebrate, Happy Easter!!! I hope you have/had a great day filled with family.

Last night, I hit 10,000 words on my WIP!!! Now, this may seem like a minuscule thing, but I am counting it as a milestone. I am doing it! My goal is to finish this WIP by the end of April. And i believe that I can fully accomplish it.

On my Writing Wednesdays blog, I reported that my weekly word goal (Wed-Tue) is 7,000-10,000. And now since I finally started the WW blogs, I am not only holding myself accountable on writing in my planner, but to all of you guys now too. And that really helps motivate me more.

The last few nights, I have been writing until 2-3am. And as I am writing, all I can think is this is what I want to do. I have always been a night owl. I feel most creative in the middle of the night. But with a full-time job, it isn’t possible.

Typical day: I get off at 5:30pm, 30 minute drive brings me to 6:00pm. Get home, eat dinner (and read a few pages of the current book I am reading), walk the pup. So now I’m at 6:45-7pm. Then I shower. From there, if there are any tv shows I watch, the tv goes on, or else I leave it off. Now it’s social media time. I typically start with Instagram (by the way, I HATE the update. I follow people for a reason. I don’t want to sign up for notifications. I get enough notifications in my life. I just want the pics on my timeline. That is why I follow them in the first place.). Then, if it’s a day I know a favorite youtube uploads, I will catch up on some Youtube videos. Then I check Facebook. And then I will check Twitter (but I’ve been slacking on Twitter. I used to check my timeline and go back as far in the day as it would on the app. But now I follow way too many people. So I don’t bother. And I’ve been slacking on the VFF one too. Need to get back to work on that.) So, at this point it’s already between 9-10pm. Then I get started on writing usually between 10-10:30pm. But a lot of times it isn’t until 11pm. On weekends, I only write until 12am (maybe slightly later if I am on a roll). Then it’s bed time.

My main dream and goal is to be able to write full-time. I’m not asking to be famous or be Ā a millionaire. Just to be able to make a living at it (minimum would beĀ what I currently make – which isn’t a ton. We aren’t in the veterinary field to get rich, that’s for sure). Because then I could make my own hours. I could write in the middle of the night when I feel I am at my best. And maybe I could even have a life.

A certain part of my lifeĀ for the past few months has been pretty awful for me. Very frustrating. Very emotionally draining. By Wednesdays, I am completely exhausted – physically, mentally, and emotionally. There is oneĀ certain person makes it very difficult. I am emotionally and mentally abused. I’m pretty much I’m told that I am not worth a damn (not in those exact words) and that I’m just a stupid little girl. It sucks. So, I try to make this my motivation. To push me. If I want an escape, I need to make my own escape. There are certain circumstance and issues currently at play, and I have surpassed my breaking point for some time now. And I want out now, even though I can’t be out just yet.

I’ve also been trying to read 1 book a week, and have been pretty successful. I will read a few pages at breakfast, a few pages at lunch, and a few pages at supper. If it’s a slow day at work, that is when I get most of my reading in. And if I am hooked, I try to read some at night (usually during a tv show that I wanted to watch, but now has passed by since I am caught up in a book, but that’s ok).

So, I do have a routine. And it seems to be working. I need to switch the focus to more writing. And I am still trying to work on the getting up early to get in more writing, but that hasn’t quite worked yet. I am waking a little bit earlier in the mornings than I used to though. So, there’s a little progress there.

But, I am trying. I am writing, finally serious about it too. And that’s all that matters.

If you have any words of wisdom, or any words of advice, please share them below with a comment.

Keep the Faith (Vince Flynn) & Stay in the Fight (Brad Thor) – ALWAYS!

American Assassin is a go … Again

Well, it looks like the “American Assassin” movie is a go … AGAIN!

The Hollywood Reporter announced a director today. You can read the full report here.

While this is very exciting news, it leaves me with the “been there, done that” feeling. This movie, that CBS Films at the moment owns the rights to, was supposedly going to start shooting in the fall of 2013. It seems, after Vince’s passing, everything stoppedĀ and nothing was being done. Ask for an update, none were ever given. So, CBS Films had until the end of this April to get things moving, or the rights would have returned to the Flynn Estate. Well, it looks like they decided to proceed in making the movie.

So, while I AM excited for Mitch Rapp to finally being on the big screen, I am unfortunately not jumping for joy.

Cold From Hell

I apologize for being MIA this past week, but I’ve been dealing with not only a cold from hell, but longer work days. I pretty much would come home, eat supper, take a shower, watch a Youtube video (currently watching CaptainSparklez2 Sky Factory Playlist) to “come down” from the day and go to bed by 9/10pm. It isn’t the worst cold I have ever had, but it ranked up there. Really sucked to have it start over New Years weekend, but then again, it was good to at least have those few days to actually rest and relax and sleep. I’m finding that I am getting sick more times now than I did when I was younger. Not sure why. šŸ˜¦

So, I hope to get back on track this week with my blogs.

Here’s to a wonderful week!



The new year is here! Happy New Year everyone!!!!!

I’m not really into making resolutions, because of all that I have ever made over the last damn near 30 years, I have never kept. I start out good and strong, then life happens, and, you know.

So, I’m not really making any resolutions for 2016, but maybe, rather, perhaps, some goals. There are many things that I have wanted to accomplish these past few years, that I haven’t. And I feel that the time is now.

One big thing in the new year, I want to try to bring some structure and routine to my blog.

Last summer, I remember that I worked on making up some categories and then I didn’t do anything with them. So, the last couple weeks, I’ve been revisiting these thoughts, and figured what better time than the new year.

I am working on changing my schedule and actually creating one by blocking off time for things (for example: 1 hour for pleasure reading, 1 hour for Bible reading, 1 hour or episode(s) of tv, 1 hour or MORE for writing) after getting home from work. I want to work on my writing, but I will still need to make some downtime and relax time to wind down from my work day. But, if I ever want to be an author, I need to finish a project. And this coming year has been presented with many challenges ahead that will definitely be causing a significant amount of stress in my life. And there will be nothing to change that. And, I had a certain plan for 2015, but it certainly didn’t pan out, and I am out of really pissed at myself for it. But, the past is in the past, and instead of sulking about it, I am moving on and moving ahead. I say this every year, but, this year, 2016, THIS IS GOING TO BE MY YEAR!

This past week I haven’t used my Erin Condren Life Planner much, simply because I haven’t made the labels that I want to use for it. Project for this weekend. and I actually ended up finding a planner (an At-A-Glance hourly one) that goes form 12am to 11pm daily. Perfect. Each page is split in half, and has the day hour slots on one half and a notes section for the other half. Double perfect. And today is the day to start it. I specifically want to use it to track my writing and the notes half will be good for extra ideas that pop into my head, or things I need to research, or anything.

So, for a blog structure, this is what I have planned. I hope to do it weekly, but I am not going to “force” myself to do it. I’m not going to just do a blog to do a blog. I want to have some meat & potatoesness to it. And I simply just want to be more active on my blog, because it brings me joy and is a good thing to help me relax.

Motivational Mondays: here I plan to post inspirational/motivational quotes/sayings.

Writing Wednesdays: updates on my writing. I’ve been very slack on my writing and the time for a change is now. And I want to bring back this blog to what I intended its purpose to be, to keep me on track and compliant to my goals.

Thursday Reads: here I will post either what I am currently reading, or what I have recently finished. And I will likely push book/author recommendations to this day as well.

Favorite Fridays: just posting on my favorite things. This will likely be a collection of randomness from books, authors, food, products, anything.

Bible Study Sundays: I have never read through the entire Bible, and have always wanted to. A few years back I actually purchased this huge Bible that is side-by-side and has the NIV (New International Version), KJV (King James Version), NASB (New American Standard Bible), and the AMP (Amplified Bible). Not sure what I will be posting for these days, it could be a verse I liked, or my interpretation of a passage. I am Catholic, but I am not the most religious person out there. But I am very excited to begin this journey.

I’m not going to go into my goals for 2016, except for the writing one. I want to finish 1 book. I want to finish 2 books. I want to finish 5 books. I need to put in the time and effort. They won’t write themselves. I am not going to let all the fears keep me from writing. There are things that I feel are holding me back, but they are things that I don’t need to worry about at this time.

So, with that, I wish everyone a very Happy, Healthy, and Successful 2016. This year is ALL of ours!!!! If we fall, we will get right back up! Let’s do this!

Why I Purchased an Erin Condren Life Planner

Yes, I broke down and spent the money on an Erin Condren Life Planner.


That’s a good question.

So, given my history, as I’ve explained before, I am the type of person that loves to buy the planners, but, I seem to never end up actually using them. I either (a) get the planner and will use if for a week or two, and then stop; or (b) get a planner, but it can’t be used right away, and I sit there all excited waiting to use it, then when the time rolls around, I have forgotten to start using it.

Year after year this happens. There is something about back to school time that I just love and always spend time in these aisles weekly, even purchasing notebooks. I have so many blank notebooks, it is ridiculous.

I’m not sure if I just love the idea of using a planner or if I am fooling myself to think I will actually use it. I loved using them in middle and high school though.

Now onto the Erin Condren planners. I’ve actually been eyeing them for about a year now. But, being $50, it is an expense. The last few months, watching some of my favorite Youtubers using/decorating them, and seeing Instagram posts on the spreads, I caved in. And I ordered one in time for December to help me organize Rappmas that I am doing on my @VinceFlynnFans twitter.

One thing that really attracted me to the EC planner is the vertical layout. All the previous planners I have had, had a horizontal layout. And I think that is part of the problem for me. New for the next year, EC has an hourly layout as well. And I considered it. I actually considered getting one of the At-A-Glance books that we use at work, but the problem with both of those options is they only go from 7am to about 7 or 8pm. I wanted this style to help me organize my “writing”. Yet, I’d need one that goes much later than 8pm. Considering, I am a night owl.

So, I ordered my life planner.

Then, came the searching Etsy for planner stickers. O M G! OBSESSED! I placed many many orders. I received most, but am still waiting on a few. I like having a decorated planner, makes it nice to look at, and relaxing to do it as I plan.

So, then as I was waiting for my planner to arrive, I started searching “plan with me” videos on youtube. I came across videos of people showing how they create stickers using a Cricut or Silhouette machine. Here we go again. Something else for me to get/do. And, noticing some of the Cricut machines on sale in some Black Friday ads, I picked one up. Oh the possibilitiesā€¦. Not only can I now make my own planner stickers, but I can make stickers for my niece and nephew, and also return address labels, etc.

I haven’t dived into my planner much yet. This week is my first full week. But I have prepped my Rappmas sections. I’m still waiting on a few crucial stickers. And I have already made a few of my own.

But I truly believe I may be sticking with this planner. I really like the layout, just need to figure out how to block it the best for me. I won’t really be able to do that until January. And a lot of people seem to use this planner not only as just a planner, but as a journal/scrapbook as well. This is what I plan on doing as well.

Only time will tell if this planner can change my “planning” ways. We’ll see, but I do have really high hopes though. šŸ™‚

Happy Plannings!

November Flew By

Well, November sure flew by!!

I hope you all have had a great month and a wonderful Thanksgiving.

November 1st, I was pretty much all decorated for Christmas. Yes, I am one of those people. I love Christmas so much, that I always decorate shortly after Halloween. I try to get everything done in November (decorate, cards, wrap presents), so I can spend December just enjoying everything. I actually just finished writing out all my cards last week, and I am for the most part done shopping. Yay.

I totally scored on dvds this Black Friday. Once I get my final order in, I will do a final count (and maybe even list all the dvds I got. Typically, Black Friday is all about me, and I shop for myself. The ads this year, were pretty lame in my opinion. The only thing I got besides dvds was a Cricut machine (more about that later in another blog post, I plan on doing tomorrow, so stay tuned), and a few items from Old Navy.

Movember has been pretty successful! As I am writing this, my team Mitch Rapp & the Killer Moustaches has raised $11,492!!! Very awesome!!

We are currently getting some measurable, stick able snow. Winter is finally upon us. Boy, we sure had a pretty lovely November.

I promise to not let so much time pass in between postsā€¦..

Goodbye Novemberā€¦.

Summer Is Over

Well, it was spring, and then it was summer, then all of a sudden it was Labor Day, and now it’s chilly and the leaves are a changing and falling again. Summer is over. Now, I’m not too upset by this because fall is my favorite season. I love watching the leaves change and fall. I love the crisp and chilly, but not too cold, air. It’s the best. But, it is always a double edge sword because winter lurks right behind fall. And winter lasts forever. FOREVER!

Lots of exciting things coming the next couple months. I have started my countdowns:

48: Halloween
74: Thanksgiving & Black Friday
103: Christmas

The biggest thing is the release of “The Survivor” on 10-6-15 (23 DAYS!!!!!!) which is the next Vince Flynn Mitch Rapp novel by Kyle Mills. Beyond excited. There is also a National Book Release Event at Saint Thomas Academy on that Tuesday night in which I am also very excited for.

In July, I started playing around with making little videos for “The Survivor”, in which I started a Youtube channel. I don’t have much content up there yet, and not sure what I will do in the future, but for right now, I am having fun making these little videos, and I also put up a video on my journey to the MN State Fair this year.

I know technically we have a little more time being officially summer, but Hello Fall, I’ve missed you šŸ™‚