4/6/16 – 4/12/16 | Writing Wednesdays

My word count for the week:

4/6/16 = 580 + 324 = 904
4/7/16 = 0
4/8/16 = 146
4/9/16 = 152
4/10/16 = 362
4/11/16 = 649
4/12/16 = 819
*Total for the week = 3,032

This past week, I’m not sure what it was, but I just wasn’t motivated at all. I know there will be weeks like this, and I am ok with it. On 4/7 I did do a lot of brainstorming and outlining on some ideas that have been festering in my brain for awhile, so I wanted to get those down before I forget them. I didn’t work on my main WIP for some reason, but hope to resume with it this next week.

3/30/16 – 4/5/16 | Writing Wednesdays

My word count for the week:

3/30/16 – 1,044
3/31/16 – 268
4/1/16 – 1,073
4/2/16 – 1,004
4/3/16 – 575
4/4/16 – 134 + 909 = 1,043
4/5/16 – 1,135
*Total for the week = 6,142

So I didn’t make either goal (writing at least 1,000 words a day, and to try to get 10,000 words for the week) but that’s ok because life happens.

And not to make excuses, I do have some. The first one involving a very stressful day at work in which I ended up taking a nice long walk with my dog, which helped me immensely (mentally and emotionally). And the second one I was busy spending time with some family while celebrating my birthday.

I think I am going to keep these 2 goals as long term goals, but I’m not going to beat myself up about not making them. Because realistically, I just don’t think they are ones I can manage every week, but they can be attainable and I do want to always reach for them and even more.

My main WIP I am currently a little stuck in. I got the basis down and the most important chapters (I think) done and grounded. But I have a long way to go, word count wise, if I want this to be a novel. I’m nearing 20,000 and a novel I believe is 60,000-90,000 on average (if I’m wrong, please tell me).

I have pondered doing a collection of short stories or novella, or separate novellas, but I really want this to be a novel. So, I’ms struggling with what I need to add. I have done some brief descriptions of what I can add, but there is a lot to go.

This main WIP is a Christmas one, so I have had Christmas movies playing the in the background and have been listening to Christmas music as I write. I know it may seem a little crazy since it’s April, but it’s soothing, and helping to motivate me.

So here’s to a productive week ahead!!

3/23/16 – 3/29/16 | Writing Wednesdays

I had a very productive week. My numbers:

3/23/16 – 604
3/24/16 – 547
3/25/16 – 983
3/26/16 – 1,761
3/27/16 – 1,093
3/28/16 – 789
3/29/16 – 1,447
*Total for the week = 7,224

I’m very proud to have made my goal of 7,000 words for the week. There were a few nights that I really didn’t want to write (mainly due to being tired or exhausted), but I forced myself to sit down and just do it. And I was really productive on those particular nights.

I’m going to try and push myself to reach at least 1,000 words a day. And I am going to try to reach a goal of 10,000 words for this next week.

Happy Easter & Updates on Life

To all who celebrate, Happy Easter!!! I hope you have/had a great day filled with family.

Last night, I hit 10,000 words on my WIP!!! Now, this may seem like a minuscule thing, but I am counting it as a milestone. I am doing it! My goal is to finish this WIP by the end of April. And i believe that I can fully accomplish it.

On my Writing Wednesdays blog, I reported that my weekly word goal (Wed-Tue) is 7,000-10,000. And now since I finally started the WW blogs, I am not only holding myself accountable on writing in my planner, but to all of you guys now too. And that really helps motivate me more.

The last few nights, I have been writing until 2-3am. And as I am writing, all I can think is this is what I want to do. I have always been a night owl. I feel most creative in the middle of the night. But with a full-time job, it isn’t possible.

Typical day: I get off at 5:30pm, 30 minute drive brings me to 6:00pm. Get home, eat dinner (and read a few pages of the current book I am reading), walk the pup. So now I’m at 6:45-7pm. Then I shower. From there, if there are any tv shows I watch, the tv goes on, or else I leave it off. Now it’s social media time. I typically start with Instagram (by the way, I HATE the update. I follow people for a reason. I don’t want to sign up for notifications. I get enough notifications in my life. I just want the pics on my timeline. That is why I follow them in the first place.). Then, if it’s a day I know a favorite youtube uploads, I will catch up on some Youtube videos. Then I check Facebook. And then I will check Twitter (but I’ve been slacking on Twitter. I used to check my timeline and go back as far in the day as it would on the app. But now I follow way too many people. So I don’t bother. And I’ve been slacking on the VFF one too. Need to get back to work on that.) So, at this point it’s already between 9-10pm. Then I get started on writing usually between 10-10:30pm. But a lot of times it isn’t until 11pm. On weekends, I only write until 12am (maybe slightly later if I am on a roll). Then it’s bed time.

My main dream and goal is to be able to write full-time. I’m not asking to be famous or be  a millionaire. Just to be able to make a living at it (minimum would be what I currently make – which isn’t a ton. We aren’t in the veterinary field to get rich, that’s for sure). Because then I could make my own hours. I could write in the middle of the night when I feel I am at my best. And maybe I could even have a life.

A certain part of my life for the past few months has been pretty awful for me. Very frustrating. Very emotionally draining. By Wednesdays, I am completely exhausted – physically, mentally, and emotionally. There is one certain person makes it very difficult. I am emotionally and mentally abused. I’m pretty much I’m told that I am not worth a damn (not in those exact words) and that I’m just a stupid little girl. It sucks. So, I try to make this my motivation. To push me. If I want an escape, I need to make my own escape. There are certain circumstance and issues currently at play, and I have surpassed my breaking point for some time now. And I want out now, even though I can’t be out just yet.

I’ve also been trying to read 1 book a week, and have been pretty successful. I will read a few pages at breakfast, a few pages at lunch, and a few pages at supper. If it’s a slow day at work, that is when I get most of my reading in. And if I am hooked, I try to read some at night (usually during a tv show that I wanted to watch, but now has passed by since I am caught up in a book, but that’s ok).

So, I do have a routine. And it seems to be working. I need to switch the focus to more writing. And I am still trying to work on the getting up early to get in more writing, but that hasn’t quite worked yet. I am waking a little bit earlier in the mornings than I used to though. So, there’s a little progress there.

But, I am trying. I am writing, finally serious about it too. And that’s all that matters.

If you have any words of wisdom, or any words of advice, please share them below with a comment.

Keep the Faith (Vince Flynn) & Stay in the Fight (Brad Thor) – ALWAYS!

3/5/16 – 3/22/16 | Writings Wednesdays

So, for the first official WW, I am extending it from just one week to when I started tracking my progress.

Here we go…

3/5/16 – 292
3/6/16 – 693
3/7/16 – Didn’t write but entered a project into Word
3/8/16 – 121 + 269 = 390
*Total for the week = 1,375

3/9/16 – 213
3/10/16 – 658
3/11/16 – 467
3/12/16 – 0
3/13/16 – 69
3/14/16 – 209
3/15/16 – 483
*Total for the week = 2,099

3/16/16 – 1,003
3/17/16 – 883
3/18/16 – 0
3/19/16 – 480
3/20/16 – 1,541
3/21/16 – 398
3/22/16 – 218
*Total for the week = 4,523

So, I want to push myself with a goal to write 7,000 – 10,000 a week.

My Project for 2015

I think I may have said something about this project sometime last year, but for 2015, I am writing a poem a day. And at the beginning of next year, I will publish them in a collection. While, I know this idea isn’t original, I did think of it before I saw that others have. I have wanted to get back into seriously writing poetry again, and thought this would be a great and fun way to do it. The only part that sucks about it, is I am loving some of the poems I have already written, and really want to share them now. I’m excited to see what poems I can come up with…

First Post of 2015

Well, it’s a new year! Welcome 2015.

I apologize for the lack of blogs in December. I meant to blog, but caught up in the holidays, and the few extra days off, and just definitely put off on blogging.

I meant to blog last week on New Years Eve, so, here, I will write what I intended that blog to be:

Let’s Be Real

So, as the year is winding down, and we say goodbye to 2014, we re-evaluate the past and prepare for the future.

2014 was definitely not as productive as I would have liked – writing wise.

This blog post isn’t about making excuses, which it may end up sounding like. I started the blog mainly to hold myself accountable. I failed. Even with this failure, I want to push the positivity of starting this blog. I’ve enjoyed the experience, and hope to grow upon it.

I had lots of high hopes. Maybe I set the bar too high for myself??? (as I tend to do). I’m not sure.

2014 had a lot of ups, but a lot of downs as well – personally, professionally, emotionally.

I get stuck in the same rut – over and over. I’ll start writing something, am really excited about it, then, it drifts away. Many times other ideas come to me, and I get excited for them, and many times, then those will take over. In the end, I accomplish nothing.

My “excuses”:

1. I just fall back into the “normal” grind of life – work, eat, sleep, repeat.

2. Maybe I’m just meant to be a dreamer?

3. Laziness?

4. Fear-ridden?

5. I worry about things that I shouldn’t even be worrying about, at least until I’ve written a first draft!

6. Am I a good enough writer?

7. Will anyone want to read what I write?

8. Will anyone like what I write?

Pushing those all aside…

Nobody is going to make my dreams come true, but, ME!

It’s already July 10th???

Holy Moly! This month is flying by.

I just finished the final season of Dexter. Wow.

So, in my Monthly Goals, I had made myself the end date of July 10th in finishing my poetry book and sending it off. It is in fact, completed. The poems are all organized. Yay! I will likely not do the copyright thing until next week. I’m battling a migraine and a little allergy thing due to too many cats at work today (I’m not allergic to cats, but sometimes they really get to me). And I don’t think I want to risk trying to deal with technology right now.

But now that I have that done, I can and have been getting back into my current project.

And then last weekend — Did everyone have a good 4th????? Mine was awesome the first 2 days I had off, and a little irritated by the second 2 days I had off, but it was great none-the-less! — I came up with another idea. It’s for another poetry book. Seems like poetry is taking over. This is one I can work on, while I get back into the novel I was working on when I first started this blog, before these other projects jumped the gun and took off.

While I wait for the copyright on the poetry book, I will take the time to get it all formatted for ebook and print, and work on a cover design. I should have plenty of time for that, so when the copyright comes in, I will be good to go to get it published. Stressful and exciting all at the same time.

I still can’t believe it is July and the month is almost half over. Wowzers.

One last note: today in the mail, I received my last paycheck from the job I was laid off at. It’s a little bittersweet. But so far, I am enjoying my weekends off. Had 2 so far.

Another slow day at work

Another slow day at work….Gives me time to write.

And my current writing project has given me some new found excitement. Instead of it just being in one person the whole way through, I decided to add many more characters’ views (which seems to be the “in” thing right now, but that isn’t why I am doing it). For how I want to now structure it, I think a one person view would be too long, and maybe get a little boring??? So now, I have to put some more thought into it and do some outlining. For what I currently have written, I don’t even have a name for the character, or any descriptive matter about her. (Usually I have those things determined before I even start writing). And I was also thinking for each character, I can do different lengths of the stanzas of the poem. Mix it up a little bit.

If it all works out as I am now planning it, it will be 10 books long. Maybe they’d actually be more like novellas. I don’t know yet. We’ll see where and how this goes. I’ll keep you updated.

Just another Tuesday

Not much going on here. Still beaming with excitement about the news yesterday on the Mitch Rapp series!!

Today was a slow afternoon at work, so I was able to work on some writing. Adding some things in where they need to be. And I noticed that in a few stanzas, I had not only past tense, but present going on as well. So, I had to make a few adjustments there, but it didn’t affect the flow or the rhyming. Having both tenses in the same stanzas strangely enough hadn’t disturbed the flow of the stanza in the poem, but it looked strange. I think I didn’t catch them until now because as I would say them, it sounded fine. Weird. I do have a few present tense stanzas, but I think I will keep those as “action” ones. It makes a nice flow. Not sure how acceptable it will be, but, I don’t care. It’s my poem, and I will do what I want to. LOL

Poetry Book Update: I am in the process of printing out all my poems, yet another time. About half way through on the ones I recently typed. I have to open and do them all at one time, so it is taking a little bit. Then, I think I will be re-typing the ones I had typed up many years ago, so I have the same font and flow as the other ones. I hope to then, get it sent off to the copyright office some time next week. (I should just pick a date that I must have that done by. Hmmm. What’s a good one?? I’ll decide by tomorrow’s blog!) Still undecided if I want to print out the form and mail the entire thing, or fill out the form online (and still mail it in). The latter is supposed to be faster and cheaper. I am too afraid of uploading the document when doing it online, because I haven’t done this process before. Then, I will work on formatting them for kindle/createspace. Have to work on a cover. Already have a preface written. Have been thinking up an afterword. Not sure if I will do a dedication, but do have a few acknowledgements (well 2) that I’d like to do.

Not sure if I will wait to upload until I receive the copyright first, or not. I think I’ve been pretty redundant on that fact. I just don’t know.

P.S. If I ever keep repeating myself on things, you will have to tell me 🙂 I’d hate to be a bore.